What's next? Acne and Awkward Dances?

There are times I think Jenna is a 2.5 year old going on 14! Given our mornings are sometimes rushed since I try to let her sleep as late as she can, but I don't need an attitude. She is all about making choices. She is in a dress stage, so we put on her sundress, then I gave her a choice of shoes and she picked a pair.

I then asked her how she wanted her hair and this is her response:

"I don't care! Don't talk to me! Just leave me alone!" She pouted and stormed off.

Uh...okay?! The next minute she was hugging my leg. Sometimes I don't get the kid at all!

Sleep tight!

Jenna's been in her big girl bed since Sunday night. She is doing so well! I was preparing myself for a tough transition, but it's been smooth. The first night so came out in the living room three or four different times, and since then, she hasn't been out at all. It's so cute to hear her reading or talking in there and then she just drifts off to sleep.



She loves her big girl bed and feels special! It was sad taking apart the crib, and for now, it's in the basement. Hopefully we can bring it back up soon to get a new nursery ready!

Dear Jenna: 31 months

Dear Jenna,

Wow, you are closer to three than to two. You have turned into a little girl somewhere over the last couple of months. I'm not sure exactly when it happened, but it did. Since you are tall, people often think you are older than you are, and then when you say you are two-and-a-half they always comment on how well you can talk. Of course, I am proud of you, and so happy to be your mom.



This past month you've finally started to be able to reach the pedals on your bike. You like to pedal and ride but only if it's on a sidewalk that is not going up or down. If you have to pedal up a hill you get mad and frustrated and stop. If you go down a hill on your bike you get going to fast and get scared I think. You stop and say you're all done. But, soon enough, you will tell yourself out loud to try again!



You also just moved into a big girl bed. Another post on this will be coming later, but you're doing pretty good with it. Your room is a little girl room now, not a baby room. It was a little sad taking down your crib. You are so proud of yourself and love your bed!



You've proven to be quite a social butterfly. If there is conversation going on that you aren't involved in, you will quickly change that but saying, "What's going on over there? What are you guys doing?" You know every one's name at daycare and talk about your friends often. Also, any little kid you see is automatically your friend. Whether you know them or not, you want to go see your friend.



When it comes to potty training you are quite stubborn. You like the idea of big girl underwear, but not so much the idea of the potty. Everyone tells me you will just do it one day when you are ready. Well, that can come any time... I've even gone as far to tell you we will have a Potty Party when you are potty trained. This was a mistake, the night I told you that, you would not go to bed. I heard you in your room...

"I have a potty party, with cake and frosting. Yum....I LOVE frosting! And friends, Evan, Kate, Bailey. And can I have birthday hats too?! I love parties. And candy at the potty party?!"



I suppose it's time to fess up, that you also seem to be a bit spoiled. You have such a good memory that if you do something once you are sure to remember it every time you are reminded of it. You ask us all the time to go back to the waterpark. Another example, one Sunday morning we were grocery shopping and I let you have a doughnut to eat while we shopped, now Heaven Forbid you don't get a doughnut EVERY TIME WE GO TO THE STORE! I just hope every parent that sees my hot pink frosting stained, two year old child in the cart, will sympathise with me.



Well, my little peanut, you have grown into a fun, high energy, enthusiastic, smart, beautiful little girl! I love you so much and you continue to make me laugh every single day! I don't know what I'd do without you (besides have lots of extra money and time) and I love being your Mommy. I look forward to learning and growing with you!



Love always,

Your Mommy

Sad

I'm not sure why I feel the need to share this with the Internet, but in a way writing about it is cathartic for me.

It's been a rough, sad couple of weeks for us! Last week we went through a miscarriage. It was and still is sad for me, although at this point right now I am mad. I hate how common they are, I hate that three of my best friends went through this too, and I hate it happened to me. I feel sad and empty.


We want a little brother or sister for Jenna so bad, and I know one day we will be pregnant again and have that, but right now it's hard. We've gone through so many emotions from excitement, to worry, to being anxious, to being sad, and now we are trying to be hopeful.

If there is any positive out of this, it's been a great reminder on how lucky we are to have the friends and family that we have. Everyone has been so supportive and have been there for us. There isn't anything anyone can say or do to make it better, but just the fact that people call to say sorry and just say they are thinking of us is nice.

I'm bitter right now, I know that's not in my normal personality traits, but it's the truth right now. I get asked every day

"When are you gonna have another?"

"It's time for Jenna to have a sister or brother!"

"The clocks ticking...don't you want them close together?"

"When is number two coming along?"

These comments didn't used to bother me, in fact, I'm sure at some point in my life I've said them to someone else (sorry!).

I just want to scream to them,
"We've been trying for nine months!!! We finally got pregnant and then had a miscarriage! So shut up!"

At which point, they would think I was a crazy hormonal lady and probably try to have me committed.

Anyway, I'm sorry for anyone who went through this or is going through it now. Infertility and losses are not fair and there is no way to explain why it happens.

We are looking forward to moving on and I'm very happy to be feeling physically better as well.

I Want a Co-oo-oo-ool Rider...

If you haven't seen Grease 2 that title won't make much sense, but onto my story.

Last night we were taking a walk and passed by a house with a motorcycle in the driveway. The guys were outside, so we said hello. Jenna runs up there and yells,

"A Motorcycle!! Just what I need! My favorite, I love it! Can I have it?"

Oh honey, that is not just what you need, you can't even reach the pedals on your bike yet! Let's take it one step at at time.

Jenna's New Playhouse!

This is Jenna's new cottage and playhouse! It took us 7 hours on Sunday to put together, but she loves it!



I hope you can read this note on the instruction manual. "Two moderately skilled adults" it was funny to us!

Here are a couple more pictures